The 'PERSONAL' me

Im a GEMINI girl.... which universally means that i potray layers of different characters in me. For one moment, u will find me scribbling some meaningful lines in my notebook & the next hour u will find me grinding hard in a club over some upbeat DJ mixes. I prefer being alone, rather than spending my time with people whose thoughts don’t sync with mine. Now, that doesn’t mean, all people have to think like me. But, there has to be some connecting fibre.....nomatter how tiny it  might be . I normally like being with those type of people who are more superior, talented, broad-minded , capable & brilliant than me. Yes, when i walk with them....i do get intimidated and jittery. But thats alright, as its the only way i get to break my silly Ego.

                           Now, coming to my ego, i need to confess that im an egoistic person. Im easily offended and i envy without looking stupid. Now again, as i said earlier that im a Gemini. So this  kind of feeling don’t happen everytime. I can stay composed and unaffected at times. Im not at all shy to say that im an emotionally honest person. Im not afraid to share my emotions to people i hardly know ( my facebook people knows about it). But if they are thoughtless...then i don’t. I emote  mostly to people who are thoughtful, sensible, elegant, lyrically versed and easy going.

                            Im that kind of girl who believes in realistic things and follow Acceptance. I don’t  want to believe on things that jump straight out of the pink Paris Hilton world where all things are butterflies and candyflosses. I live in a real world .....so i know that quarter of the world is poor, half of the population is ugly, most of the people in the under-developed regions die in starvation, half of the masses are illiterates, many women around the world sell their body for a living, many young people commit suicide due to depression. And many more.....

                          Now im sure, u might have assumed that im a pessimist. But, as said earlier....i believe in Acceptance. So, these are the ugly truths that i accept. I don’t stop here. I accept my imperfection, i accept my losses, i accept refusals, i accept my limitations, i accept the wrong, i accept thoughtful opinions, i accept challenges, and i accept life as it comes. I don’t ask for things i don’t deserve......even if its a MERCEDEZ, hehe.

                        Im a loving person,  and i give my heart and soul to the person and people i love. But i know that oneday they will leave and i will forget. Departures and break-ups have sober effect on me.......they don’t bring me to the verge of extinction. I feel the pain very badly......but i put lot of strength in MOVING ON. I fall in love when i think im ready. I don’t want to cry over bad report-cards...so i take time. I have a soft corner for boys who are sober, intelligent, thoughtful, broad-minded, having good vocabulary, who are not chauvinistic, who are socially active, who can sing and play the acoustic, and who have strong self-opinions on things around them. My knees go weak over rappers, beatboxers, body-breakers, musicians and lyricists. I love them head to toe. Im a musically driven person. It plays a very important role in my everyday growth as an individual. I listen to songs that i can relate myself to. I love hiphop, alternative rock, blues, RnB, and rock n roll. I can forget all my pain and problems when i close my eyes and put the headphones on.

                     Im a creative person, who don’t believe in following the crowd. I want to do things that are different from others. I don’t want to look the same....so, i don’t follow trend and rather have a style of my own.  I don’t speak the same hyped lingo that everybody does. My speeches are well-equipped and i don’t use slangs.

                     I dislike tacky behaviours, fake accents, silly grammatical errors, visible spelling mistakes, wrong diction, hand-signs, alcohol & narcotics, flambouyance, irritating songs, traffic, delayed flights, pointless controversies, and stereotypical lifestyle. I hate to judge people from the outside because they might be different from the inside. And, i relate myself better with people who have once made mistakes in their life.....as they are the ones who know what real life is all about.

                    Arguably, im a very religious person. I believe in the BIBLE. It is my God’s word and i try my best to abide by it in my own style. I believe that whoever ive become now is all because of the blessings of Lord Jesus Christ. He is my true friend and a rockstar. I need him in my life till i live. I am incomplete without him.

                   When im busy with nothing, then i write blogs, play computer games, make collages, surf the internet and listen to music.

                     Phew! Finally, im done with my personal-description. I know this is probably one of the longest you’ve read in your time. I cant do without thanking you for bearing with the length. So, thank you. Lots of love. Lord bless!