Dusky notes- Small girl production (My new beat)

Tribute to one of the most influential game 'Assasin's creed'

Making beat......when i cant express myself in any other way.

Without a FAME

I have seen the SUN
I have touched the RAIN
I have laughed the GAIN
I have cried the PAIN
Sometimes, ive WON the game
Very often, ive LOST my name
Im thankful....things aren't always the same
Sometimes, LIFE is so much better without a FAME.

The 'PERSONAL' me

Im a GEMINI girl.... which universally means that i potray layers of different characters in me. For one moment, u will find me scribbling some meaningful lines in my notebook & the next hour u will find me grinding hard in a club over some upbeat DJ mixes. I prefer being alone, rather than spending my time with people whose thoughts don’t sync with mine. Now, that doesn’t mean, all people have to think like me. But, there has to be some connecting fibre.....nomatter how tiny it  might be . I normally like being with those type of people who are more superior, talented, broad-minded , capable & brilliant than me. Yes, when i walk with them....i do get intimidated and jittery. But thats alright, as its the only way i get to break my silly Ego.

                           Now, coming to my ego, i need to confess that im an egoistic person. Im easily offended and i envy without looking stupid. Now again, as i said earlier that im a Gemini. So this  kind of feeling don’t happen everytime. I can stay composed and unaffected at times. Im not at all shy to say that im an emotionally honest person. Im not afraid to share my emotions to people i hardly know ( my facebook people knows about it). But if they are thoughtless...then i don’t. I emote  mostly to people who are thoughtful, sensible, elegant, lyrically versed and easy going.

                            Im that kind of girl who believes in realistic things and follow Acceptance. I don’t  want to believe on things that jump straight out of the pink Paris Hilton world where all things are butterflies and candyflosses. I live in a real world .....so i know that quarter of the world is poor, half of the population is ugly, most of the people in the under-developed regions die in starvation, half of the masses are illiterates, many women around the world sell their body for a living, many young people commit suicide due to depression. And many more.....

                          Now im sure, u might have assumed that im a pessimist. But, as said earlier....i believe in Acceptance. So, these are the ugly truths that i accept. I don’t stop here. I accept my imperfection, i accept my losses, i accept refusals, i accept my limitations, i accept the wrong, i accept thoughtful opinions, i accept challenges, and i accept life as it comes. I don’t ask for things i don’t deserve......even if its a MERCEDEZ, hehe.

                        Im a loving person,  and i give my heart and soul to the person and people i love. But i know that oneday they will leave and i will forget. Departures and break-ups have sober effect on me.......they don’t bring me to the verge of extinction. I feel the pain very badly......but i put lot of strength in MOVING ON. I fall in love when i think im ready. I don’t want to cry over bad report-cards...so i take time. I have a soft corner for boys who are sober, intelligent, thoughtful, broad-minded, having good vocabulary, who are not chauvinistic, who are socially active, who can sing and play the acoustic, and who have strong self-opinions on things around them. My knees go weak over rappers, beatboxers, body-breakers, musicians and lyricists. I love them head to toe. Im a musically driven person. It plays a very important role in my everyday growth as an individual. I listen to songs that i can relate myself to. I love hiphop, alternative rock, blues, RnB, and rock n roll. I can forget all my pain and problems when i close my eyes and put the headphones on.

                     Im a creative person, who don’t believe in following the crowd. I want to do things that are different from others. I don’t want to look the same....so, i don’t follow trend and rather have a style of my own.  I don’t speak the same hyped lingo that everybody does. My speeches are well-equipped and i don’t use slangs.

                     I dislike tacky behaviours, fake accents, silly grammatical errors, visible spelling mistakes, wrong diction, hand-signs, alcohol & narcotics, flambouyance, irritating songs, traffic, delayed flights, pointless controversies, and stereotypical lifestyle. I hate to judge people from the outside because they might be different from the inside. And, i relate myself better with people who have once made mistakes in their life.....as they are the ones who know what real life is all about.

                    Arguably, im a very religious person. I believe in the BIBLE. It is my God’s word and i try my best to abide by it in my own style. I believe that whoever ive become now is all because of the blessings of Lord Jesus Christ. He is my true friend and a rockstar. I need him in my life till i live. I am incomplete without him.

                   When im busy with nothing, then i write blogs, play computer games, make collages, surf the internet and listen to music.

                     Phew! Finally, im done with my personal-description. I know this is probably one of the longest you’ve read in your time. I cant do without thanking you for bearing with the length. So, thank you. Lots of love. Lord bless!

                                         

IF TOMMOROW NEVER COMES

Forget what you have done

Now its all dead and gone.

Dont stay back.. prepare yourself  for a new run .

Erase your DONT’S

Open up your heart

It’s only once in lifetime that you get to play your part.

Express yourself in words, action and everything else that introduces you.

Have the spirit.... Do your dues.

It’s an art. Not a  custom.

Do it all, Say it all.

What if today is your last day to see the night fall?

 ‘’DO IT ALL’’

For nine months in your mother’s womb you slept sound and safe.

Hid yourself from fear of the night and turmoil of the day.          

Nourished yourself with her divine love and care.

She’s given you everything that’s in your share.

When “elephant” was the word and you could not spell.

When the wild thorns pricked you and tears from your eyes fell.

When bad days surrounded you, and your life was hell.

Remember.... she was the one to lift you up... and make you sail.

You cannot afford to fold your hands and just stare .

Neither can you twist the tale.

Now, it’s your turn to give her the lifelong fun.

Do it today, Do it now !

The candle of life don’t forever  burn

So don’t wait for tomorrow .

What if tomorrow never comes?

“SAY IT ALL”

A new day has arrived!

Everything is new...so are you.

Now you have grown tall

Tall indeed ; to catch your own fall.

Gone are the days when you would crawl

You have crossed that old line,

But your parents still don’t forget to rub your spine.

They still wait for chances to pick you up in their arms

They love you the most...and so do you.

Thats when you should say “ i love you too “

They have run life’s longest yard for you

Irrespective of whether they gain or lose in pain.

They won you a good life

Now wont you pay your due?

Go ahead and say “thank you”.

Say it all before its too late

Believe me.... you cant change your fate.

Don’t let silence be your sorrow,

So, don’t wait for tomorrow.

What if tomorrow never comes?.

For this Moment

There’s a look in your face    
                                        
Of something precious that you’re missing.

The pain which i see in your eyes

I wish i could only erase.

But would you listen if i said

“Come with me....you  are not alone”

CHORUS#

Let me hold your tears

Just for this moment.

Let me heal your heart

Just for this moment.

Let me walk with you

Just for this moment.

Coz once you walk through that door

The world is waiting for you.

Heaven is a place nearby

So, make a wish right-away.

Just trust me. Don’t ask why

I will keep silent for a while

Tonight, i want God to hear only you

Because my wish is already by my side.

CHORUS#

Let me hold your tears

Just for this moment

Let me heal your heart

Just for this moment

Let me walk with you

Just for this moment

Coz once you walk through that door

The world is waiting for you.

Look! the fireflies are not around us anymore

And there’s no more noise in the shore.

Your eyes have also changed colour now

So, the morning has finally arrived

I have to leave you and keep my vow.

Wake up, somebody has come to take you.

CHORUS#

I have held your tears

Just for that moment

I have healed your heart

Just for that moment

I have walked with you

Just for that moment

Now that you walk through that door

You wont need me anymore.